Addiction and Withdrawal

If the first step is admitting you have a problem, then here goes…

I need help.

It’s about Palin.

I know hearing her, watching her, reading about her makes me feel bad, and yet I can’t stop. I don’t want to pay attention anymore, and yet I can’t tear myself away. I know her incoherent rambling and incessant lying – and TV reporters’ failure to call her on it – will leave me feeling empty inside, but still…I tune in. I don’t know what I think I am going to get. I don’t know why I expect this time is going to be different. This time someone will look her in the eye and say, “Huh?”

I’ve told myself I can quit anytime I want, but I can’t. I know because I want to. I really, really do.

Catching her in absurdities used to be marginally gratifying, but now, I get nothing. Not even the initial high. No one cares. It’s so demoralizing.

And yet as long as the dealers – the TV people – are still out there trolling for customers, I fear I’ll be tempted to try it again, just this once.

The only solution is commiting to quitting cold turkey. Just picking a day and saying, “No more! I’m done!”

Maybe tomorrow.

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